Illusion
Anger Swells,
Threatening to explode.
Terror!
I read:
Jesus was angry
And sinned not!
I fear anger.
I fear expressing
Anything!
Any expression
Is like sin.
Excruciating!
I’m bound up.
Unable to move.
Frozen!
I have no control.
I am uncontrolled.
Unbearable!
Words are insufficient.
My soul groans.
The agony!
I can do
Nothing, or
So, it seems!
Controlled!
Controlled!
Unconsoled!
So, I grasp
At straws
Trying!
I have hope.
I control.
Illusion!
Like a vapor
I fade away,
Slowly!
Better illusion, than…?!
Still anguish!
But…In control…I am!
-Richard L. Brewer
March 5, 1996
Mediocre Meanderings 